urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack alina_attack alina_attack 2006-11-15T13:08:41Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:4888 2006-11-15T13:08:41Z 2006-11-15T13:08:41Z this was something that i had to share in class as my closing argument on same-sex marriage...<br /><br />What if you feel in love with some amazing, wonderful, beautiful person? Your dream mate…some one you couldn’t imagine living life with out. And you were told you two couldn’t marry each other because you guys are a little different from the “norm.” well that’s what we are doing to homosexuals. And that’s not fair. Rules are meant to be broken. And this is defiantly one that should be. Every one of us is different. Saying two homosexuals can’t get married is like saying to short people can’t get married… it’s stupid! We are a free country and we have rights no matter how different we are and one of our rights is to love whoever we want.<br />Now if you are saying that because in the bible it says it’s bad… well yeah it dose. But the bible says there are a lot of things that we shouldn’t do, but we do them anyway. Such as murder, adultery, getting drunk, cussing, and so on and so forth. You may be saying “well they are living in sin” yeah but hello! We all are! No one is perfect. We are being hypocrites if you are pointing the finger at these people saying there unholy, sinful, perverts. We all are, just in different ways. Love is love no matter what gender it is shared by. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:4660 2006-11-14T23:52:24Z 2006-11-14T23:52:24Z wow, you really know how to make me feel like shit.<br />and make things much worse then they already are.<br />you know just what to say to push me over the edge.<br />god, you put me through some amazing guilt trips.<br />gahh.. if life dosn't already suck enough right now, well you know how to make it soo much better.<br /><br />i have made an ass out of myself the past day.<br />and you have done nothing to make me feel better<br />you have just laid the guilt trip on me..."it scares me when you are like this"..."do you feel like you want to hurt youself again?"..."your acting like the night all that stuff happened"<br /><br />i know you fucking love me but my god,every time i get a little sad you need to stop freaking out about it. im not going to fucking cut myself or try and kill myself ever again. i feel bad enough about it already and you just have to keep bring it back up. i just want to forget it ever happened. i made a mistake and if it's not bad enough that i have to look at the scars on my arms and legs everyday to remind me of what i did,i have you on my back about it always worring and watching.you have no idea what it's like to watch every action i make so i don't disturbe you. and im sorry for all the Emotional and spiritual shit i put you through. i know because of me you lost some faith in God.<br /><br />i'm sorry to all y'all <br />i'm sorry to every friendship,relationship and every other "ship"i have screwed up. and i have done that a lot...i am just a plain screw up. i ruin just about everything...my god i have been through so many "best friends" it crazy! the first one ditched me because i wasn't cool enough and the second on droped me cause i guess she couldn't handle being around someone that (use to) hurt themself. i have 2 bf right now... and i almost lost one the other night but thank god i didn't. i don't know what i'm going to do when i ruin the realtionship i have with these 2 amazing people. but i know sooner or later it will happen and i am sooo sorry. i don't know what i'm going to do to ruin it but i know i will some how. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:4376 2006-11-12T21:39:23Z 2006-11-12T21:39:23Z What the hell am I thinking?<br />I can’t have these feelings for him. But I do! <br />He is taken and doesn’t want me…I just have to get that through my head.<br /><br />But I can’t help all theses feeling that I’m feeling. God, I wish they would go away! …but there not. No matter how hard I try! And it’s not fair to me or him.<br /><br />God, I wish I could compare to her…but I can’t. She’s everything I’m not.<br />I hate always being second best. I don’t want to sleep to dream anymore. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:4271 2006-11-11T15:50:36Z 2006-11-11T20:06:17Z so i pretty much had an amazing talk last night with a really good friend...it felt so good to get things off my cheast and to find out some things from him that made me feel better and respect him even more. i am so thankful that i have found you. you are amazing and a really good person. it's nice having someone to talk to that won't judge me like most people would. and it's nice to know that you still think about us...i like that. i am sorry that we are nothing more then good friends but thats ok. i can deal with that. like i said before i would rather have you as a really good friend then nothing at all. for some reason when i'm with you i want to tell you my whole life story...i want you to know every bit about my past and everything i dream for in the future.(cornny sounding i know, but very true) i am just so comfortable around you. i have always been a person that keeps to themselfs for the most part but you bring out something diffrent in me. i can't describe it really and i don't mean to freak you out or anything haha. im just telling you how i feel. i'm not even sure if you will ever get to read this.haha i don't think i have the balls to send you my liveJournal name thingy haha...god, im lame. haha well all i can say now is that i hope we have many more amazing talks like we did last night/this monring haha. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:4088 2006-10-18T21:05:07Z 2006-10-18T21:07:43Z i just found out that one of my best friends has been talking shit about me behind my back. she has been saying stuff like "she’s boring" "why would a guy want to hang out with her?" and shit like that.<br /><br />well im sorry im such a boring person!<br />maybe you should go find a new friend that is FUN and full of EXCITMENT!!<br />because obviously im not... <br /><br />god! you are such a selfish bitch...all you think about is your self! you don't care for those around you. i'm sorry that your best friend is in love with your brother...but get over it!! they are going to be together forever! unless you find some way to get in between them (and i wouldn't put it past you!)<br /><br />and your mom should have disciplined you more as a child...haha<br /><br />im sorry if this is a little mean and hurtful. but i have been nothing but a great friend to you and i don't deserve this shit! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:3640 2006-10-18T01:08:05Z 2006-10-18T01:08:05Z i miss talking to you<br />i miss staying up late and texting you<br />i miss your laugh<br />i miss your smile<br />i miss the way you held my hand <br />i miss everything about you<br /><br />i miss the way you made me laugh<br />i miss the was you made me smile<br />i miss the way you made me felt every time you came near<br />i miss your touch<br />i miss voice<br />i miss the way you made fun of me<br />i miss your funny storys<br /><br />i miss our friendship urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:3563 2006-10-16T01:30:32Z 2006-10-16T01:30:32Z i posted this on myspace a while ago and i forgot to do it here so...yeah...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />I have always believed in karma<br /><br />Good people get good things <br /><br />And bad people don't'.<br /><br /> <br /><br />Now I'm not sure what to believe<br /><br />I always thought I was a good person<br /><br />I've never stolen<br /><br />Always do what mommy and daddy say<br /><br />And never stayed out past curfew<br /><br />Yeah, pretty dull and boring <br /><br />But a good person<br /><br /> <br /><br />So why is my life royally fucked up now?<br /><br />My boyfriend/one of my best friends (at the time) dumped me to go back you with his ex<br /><br />My family is a mess and we all pretty much hate each other<br /><br />I'm tired physically, emotionally, and spiritually <br /><br />And my face is breaking out…haha<br /><br /> <br /><br />I feel like God is building me up just to break me down<br /><br />And I must say he is doing a damn good job<br /><br /> <br /><br />I'm not trying to sound sorry for myself or complain<br /><br />I'm just trying to figure out what the hell I've done wrong urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:3231 2006-10-16T01:22:02Z 2006-10-16T01:49:40Z You’re not with the girl you know you’re supposed to be with<br />You’re just with the girl that satisfies your wants<br /><br />You’re supposed to be with the one you want to wake up next to every morning.<br />The one you start little fights with just so you can make up.<br />The one that loves you no matter what<br /><br />You’re a heartbreaker <br /><br />You know the one your with won’t last much longer <br />Yet you keep leading her on, making her think she is the only one you love, the one you want to spend the rest of you life with.<br /><br />While you make the one you know you’re supposed to be with second guess herself<br />you Make her doubt<br />you Make her hope and pray urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:2869 2006-07-02T19:40:41Z 2006-07-02T19:40:41Z One of my best friends has the most beautiful relationship with a guy. Im so envious of her. I mean you can tell this is more then just puppy lovethis is the REAL DEAL. You can just tell by the way they look and talk to each other. Its just like woah! And whats even more amazing about there relationship is that it doesnt revolve around sex, like most do. <br /><br /> But it pisses me off that there are people that dont want these two incredible people together, or people that think they have better relationship with there girlfriend then these two. NO ONES RELATIONSHIP IS COMPAIRABLE TO THERES. I have never seen two people more in love in my life. I hope that one day I will be able to experience a fraction of love like theres. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:2650 2006-06-20T01:55:50Z 2006-11-11T20:18:10Z i'm so happpy!!<br /><br /><br />can't bring me down bitches!!<br /><br />haha<br /><br /><br />yay!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:2156 2006-06-19T00:55:21Z 2006-06-19T00:55:21Z this bible verse is amazing<br /><br /><br />I thank my God every time i remember you. -Philippans 1:3<br /><br />wow urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:1594 2006-06-17T01:42:56Z 2006-06-17T01:42:56Z AFI i'm i a bad mood... and it's because of boys...i don't like them...they suck. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:1129 2006-06-15T16:40:50Z 2006-06-15T16:49:42Z Radiohead<br /><br /><br />When you were here before, <br />Couldn't look you in the eyes<br />You're just like an angel, <br />your skin makes me cry<br /><br />You float like a feather<br />In a beautiful world<br />I wish I was special<br />You're so fuckin' special<br /><br />But I'm a creep, <br />I'm a weirdo<br />What the hell am I doin' here?<br />I don't belong here<br /><br />I don't care if it hurts, <br />I wanna have control<br />I want a perfect body <br />I want a perfect soul<br /><br />I want you to notice <br />when I'm not around<br />You're so fuckin'special<br />I wish I was special<br /><br />But I'm a creep<br />I'm a weirdo<br />What the hell am I doin' here?<br />I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh<br /><br />She's running out the door ...<br />She's running out <br />she's run, run, run, run... <br />run...<br /><br />Whatever makes you happy<br />Whatever you want<br />You're so fuckin' special<br />I wish I was special<br /><br />But I'm a creep, <br />I'm a weirdo<br />What the hell am I doin' here?<br />I don't belong here<br /><br />I don't belong here...<br /><br /><div style="font:bold 11px verdana"><a class="hov" style="display:block;width:300px;border:solid 2px black;padding:5px" href="http://www.videocodezone.com/videos/r/radiohead/creep.html" target="_blank">CREEP (Radiohead)<p>Invalid video URL.</a><p style="margin:3px 0px"><a href="http://www.videocodezone.com/">Video Code provided by VideoCodeZone.Com</a></p></div><br /><br /><br />i love this song! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:833 2006-06-15T01:39:57Z 2006-06-15T01:39:57Z so i posted this bulletin on myspace the other day and it turns out i was right.<br /><br /><br />so i'm going with dani tonight to my old church were they all think i'm satanic or something and i'm scared and nervous. They will all be looking at me weird and stuff. AHHHH i hate this. why can't people just accept you for your mistakes, you'd think these CHURCH GOING PEOPLE would be able to. but i guess they don't think God will forgive me for a mistake i made so why should they? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:542 2006-06-15T00:44:25Z 2006-11-11T20:19:17Z cause i'm stuck at home with nothing to do. <br />and life fucking sucks right now.i told every one i was over this guy and i'm defiantly not...i don't know why i can't get over that ass hole. grrr... it pisses me off. i don't know what to do. i can't get him off my mind. i want him back so bad. i know i sound like a silly little girl but it's all true and i can't help how i feel.<br /><br />peace bitches. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alina_attack:335 2006-06-14T01:35:34Z 2006-06-14T01:35:34Z Im tired of setting these unbelievably high standers for myself that are impossible to reach. Always trying to do whats right. Well I cant anymore! You have one life to live right? Why not have as much fun as you can? Im not saying that I should start whoring things up and becoming a drunk or anything, but why shouldnt I experiment a little. Im the only one out of my friends that hasnt. And why not do it with the people that I love. Am I being completely wrong and immoral?